up until now, my philosophy when it comes to living in the real world have been

a) don't trust anyone. zero sum - no trust means no disappointment

b) friends are meant to be kept at arm's length - so that when they disappoint, it won't sting as badly

c) people are base, selfish animals, so never expect anything but evil.

 

 

and that has kept me going all these years (excluding the 2 years in high school, but it came back when i went to NS). but now, i don't know. for the first time, i had friends that i know will stick by me through thick and thin. add to that the fact that linus and i are back in contact once again, i think i'll have to rethink my philosophies.

 

the other night i was talking to a friend about these ideas. i kinda got depressed and pushed her away. and at that point, i realised what i'd done, and it hit me - i'm not alone anymore! how stupid was i to bring all that baggage with me to australia - i wanted to leave it in singapore, but somehow it stuck with me - like a really bad rash.

 

so now i'm going to change, and trust my friends to be there for me :) life's gonna be good for the next 4 years at least, and most likely for much longer after that :D

 

*side note* i got 30/26 for assignment 2!! W00TIES!

well, that's 2 exams over so far.

 

maths was awesome!! omg man the only other time i've ever had such a good exam, it was my 3U exam in 2004! like wth? of course there were a few questions i had no idea how to answer - it wouldn't be an exam without those - but most of it was like....zoom! done. checked answers and cleared up (what i hope were) careless mistakes, and i even saved myself from losing major points due to a missed section. *WHEW*!

 

electrical. omg what a sin to humanity. i totally messed that one up. just went in there, sat down, looked at the paper and TOTALLY blanked out! wth! i couldn't even remember how to determine the thevenin equivalent circuit! >< totally depressed me. in the end i think i pulled it out my ass. *sigh* worst exam ever. even after studying it. i'm so dead there. no HD for me....

 

well there's computing and PHYSICS left. these should seriously seperate the men from the boys. the funny thing is, for computing, it doesn't matter how good you are at programming, if you suck at exams you could still score a low mark, 'cause the exam is worth 60%, and the assignments are only worth 30% (other stuff = 10%). so even if you score well for the assignments, you still have to be able to take the exam, which sucks, since the only thing we can study is the set of notes that the crappiest lecturer on the planet created. PHYSICS will really kill us all, seeing as no one has any idea for the most part. there are smart ppl around - REALLY smart ppl, and they feel stressed about it as well. oh well. the only thing we can do is to study as hard as we can right?

 

time to hit the sack, then hit the books ><.

 

peace out.

later.

my birthday was a couple of days ago. i'm 21! makes no difference to me - in fact, i'm glad to be older. more mature and all that. more life experience behind me. my birthdays have never been a good thing. i didn't celebrate them with friends. i went out for dinner with my family and that was it. pretty ><. this year was, like, my 2nd time celebrating my birthday since i was...13? ish? and to be honest, it was alright. i was planning to avoid all my friends, and try to get this day overwith with minimum fuss. no expectations means no disappointment right?

 

i'm so glad that plan failed.

 

little miss kaily tricked me into walking back to the quad where they had a cake and presents waiting. i was like :S at first, but then i started to like it. haha! i have some awesome friends, and i'm so glad i didn't succeed in avoiding them. i got some pretty awesome gifts! (thanks all!) the cake was good (even if it may have caused me some discomfort - WHIPPED CREAM!!) and the lunch after that was ... small but nice.

 

the day was pretty awesome as well! i drove to uni and decided to park in the multistory on barker. i turned into the lots and lo! there was a spot riiight in my face. i went about my awesome day, and got a 10/10 for a maths test! like wth! 3rd time already...lol. so the day went on, and i was studying in the physics building 'til about 1630, when i realised that my ticket expired an hour ago! i figured, screw it, the ticket will or won't be there, regardless of whether i check or not. turns out, I DIDN'T GET A PARKING TICKET! on the way home from uni, i hear on the radio that MY RADIO IS ON SALE!! i just bought it, and all the crap associated with it was less than the RRP for the radio alone! w000000!! installation will be done soon, then all i need is a sub and an amp. i might even install a remote lock just to keep it all safe!

 

so all in all, pretty awesome start to my 21st year of life. you know what they say right? it's all downhill from here? well bring it!!

 

peace out.

later.